A quote that has been attributed to many well know authors and philosophers is:
“Wherever you go, there you are.”
When the idea of traveling came to me as a starry eyed adventurous child; I longed to go everywhere. As a teenager I kept thinking of what things would be like when I went somewhere new. That fresh feeling of new surroundings and unlimited possibilities is intoxicating, but sometimes misleading.
As a young adult I struggled with depression and the stress of PTSD. I wanted to travel to get away, but my mind was full. Racing thoughts and constant triggers made it difficult to enjoy traveling; I was not able to be a good travel companion to myself. After seeking professional help, I began the journey to recovery.
I found balance as an adult and have kept traveling, but enjoyed coming home. I travel now to experience the world around me in a different way and to see what life is like for others. I have enjoyed visiting friends around the world and experiencing what their communities have to offer. I now can nurture myself, and be attentive while traveling.
New scenery may help give more perspective but it is not an escape, not truly. Traveling can dim the distraction, but you will always carry yourself with you. You are your travel companion, and until you become comfortable with you, it’s hard to truly get away. Before taking your next adventure take some time to be a better travel companion, and seek help for the mental health issues that travel with you.