To my Dear Creatures at Broken Heaven
Being that this is Thanksgiving Day week here in America which has now become my second home I want to share with everyone there at Brookhaven ( as you know the place that I called my own Broken Heaven ) - my feelings.
First of all I miss all of you but most of all it is important for me to know that you know the gifts you have given me I take with me now through every moment of my being so in many ways I feel you are with me with every step I take.
And the most significant thing that all of you there have given back to me simply is my ability to experience my own happiness.
That was for years the very thing that I who had fallen into a well of no purpose in life.
A real terrifying feeling of having dropped into an abyss left me with only feelings of dread and fear and that which prevented my from experiencing who I really was and always was which is simply a very happy person.
This exaltation.... I owe to all of you and I only write it today to Thank You. Though I know you saw me in a condition of total resistance, of someone who was initially fighting with you in total disbleif of even my own existence and everything around me,-- you were able to teach me to trust in you and in my own self which has enabled me to trust again.
You gave me the discipline that sadly I had lost along the way. You gave me the strategy to redefine my priorities. That is what I learned from you and to put my own creativity before everything, each day, to take the time to feel and treasure each of the baby steps towards coming back to my self and my ability to love.
It is now no longer the path on which the trauma was defining me, but I am overcoming the trauma which is no longer in the path.
I survived I am alive and each day more fearless than the last.