“I’m fine”

What do those two little words mean? What am I trying to tell you? What am I trying to tell myself? The reality; I am far from “fine”. My world may feel as though it is unbearable, overwhelming, and dark. I am depressed, anxious, can’t find my way. Don’t worry; I won’t bother you with my problems. I’ll avoid eye contact and make sure the interaction goes by quickly so you don’t see my pain…

I’m fine… not really; I just am too scared to tell anyone, or even to tell myself the truth. I am hurting, struggling, and just want the day to end. I don’t have hope, and don’t think about the future. I need you to have hope and dreams for us because I am lost in the darkness of my world.

PLEASE SEE ME! I need others to see my pain, my suffering, my depression.


Comments (8)

HeatherDecember 9th, 2008 at 7:25 pm

i can relate to this one a lot. it’s always i’m fine or i’m okay. thank you for this blog.

SaraDecember 11th, 2008 at 12:56 pm

This is so true and such a good representation of what it feels like. I’ve been there before, and thankfully Brookhaven was there to help.

AprilJanuary 2nd, 2009 at 1:22 am

Thank you so much, I fully understand and felt I was the only one out there.

DebraJanuary 7th, 2009 at 3:10 pm

I totally get what everyone is saying. I have gotten where when people ask how I am I just say I am fine or ok. I have learned when am asked that question they really don’t want to know. 3/4th of my life is termoil all year around. I am dying inside and feel that am stuck with no way out. If I am sounding really down it’s cause I am. My severe depression, borderline personality disorder and bipolar is kicking in right now. I hope finding this web site will be some use.

ArleneJanuary 8th, 2009 at 2:21 pm

it was like reading something I wrote. everyone asks “How are you” I say “I’m fine” put on the fake smile and go on with life. I’m not fine…I thought I was getting better but I don’t know what that is for long….I even carved “I’m fine” in my leg my last cutting spree…. what is “Fine”?

Patricia L.B.January 9th, 2009 at 2:16 pm

I agree completely with the passage, it is so true!!!!!!!

LoriJanuary 24th, 2009 at 9:58 pm

I know exactly where you are coming from. I go through my School ay and say that exact same line at least a hundred times. though I really don’t know if I’m fine. I gust sit and hope that the day will end, even though it has gust started.

Christina MacDonaldJanuary 25th, 2009 at 3:37 pm

I hear what your all saying, Iuse the words “I am fine” “nothing is wrong” but inside I am an emtional mess, racey thoughts, sadness, loneliness, darkness, trapped feeling!

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